Sometimes the words just roll off your tongue like spit
the saliva has more meaning than you think
a Freudian slip
I miss you
I love you
they have meaning, but in some ways do you ever think before you say
theres moments in life that you cant help but wonder,
if anything actually means what its meant to.
If they mean anything at all.
Or are all those words just blocks of ice, cold and transparent.
With no meaning, no thoughts or feelings behind where the emotion should be.
Frequently the words drip, and slide.
It hurts when you find out that they were never actually meant.
Memories play like films in sequence th
all these hyped up emotions
all stem from you
but then all it ever is,
is just emotions.
empty promises and broken ideas,
fabricating the sad pathetic life i lead.
i should of learned,
never to take things too seriously,
never to trust or believe.
past experiences should of taught me that.
But i thought you were different,
but i've been proved that i was just mistaken.
Who is the thorn and who is the rose?
i thought the other night you were a rose,
but i seem to of judged you wrong,
i don't know whether you are the thorn either,
give me a chance to find out,
if you will.
Maybe i could be the garden that a rose may live,
i c
your words are just words
they mean nothing
they just flow off your tongue
like water off a waterfall
a neverending cycle of bullshit
another way to say an excuse
but never a sorry
the excuses like useless "welcome" mats pile up on the floor
but you don't see them
everywhere you walk, you carry a mirror
the only person you can see is yourself
like what you see?
i don't
Buy yourself a glass stomach
i think it's about time you saw the world
saw me, instead of yourself and
your pitiful reflection
call me when the mirror breaks...
in your eyes
i'm worthless
i have no name
no feelings
no emotions by me
i am worthless
i am none
i am not darkness
i am not sun
in your eyes
i am worthless
i know that by now
i heard it
i hear it
it bellows in my ears
the drum beats louder
and louder
and louder
i am worthless
i am nothing
that is what i am
to him
i
am
nothing
but worthless filth
in
his
eyes.
his eyes
are sparkling
waterfalls they
glisten i am
worthless i taint
the water the purity
i am nothing.
i am worthless.
i am his
own
private
disappointment.
The rain water like my tears
flow down the pane of glass
acidic yet so clear they burn me
loneliness takes over this time
the heart beats faster unable to
slow down they tell me its ok
i just sit there watching the rain
feeling my tears stealing the pain
whats to come the future scares me
people scare me i dont like the way
they scare they scare at me look deep
into my mind thats private nothing
for them to look to read its my mind
my heart my head but i cant control them
theyre like an alien to me now i no longer
control what they do but they control me
i am just the spectator to my own demise.
The ice cold touch from death
throttled him inside out
he does not fear gods wrath
as he did not scream or shout
he wasnt a mess
but he did spill
His blood did caress
as it flowed on the ground
hung tightly to the grass
and other things that surround
what a horrible mess
the dark angel frowned
turned his back to the incident
glanced quickly at the ground
with a smirk on his face
and a glint in his eye
he strolled off casually
staring at the sky.
It crawls along the florr,subdued mis-used,
girls like me are treated like dirt
forgotten yet confused
we lie there ignored and subdued,
comtemplating,
thinking,
watching,
dying,
praying
The minutes go,
The hours past,
it was a long time ago,
Since i saw you last,
To hear your voice,
Would be bliss,
To hear your laugh,
reminds me what ive missed,
to talk for hours,
Just with you,
Would make me smile,
If only for a day or two,
but the thing that lingers in my mind,
Is this purely an act?
Or are you genuinely...nice... and kind?
Battles lost and won by neverthechosen, literature
Literature
Battles lost and won
i look at you and still remember the days .
that have left ;have gone.
i look into your eyes with a solemn gaze,
remembering battles lost and won.
you told me stories about the past,
told me secrets about you,
you told me dreams will always last,
as you and me will too.
Cause as you see were solid
fused together as one
what people say is squalid
but is obvious their jealous
frightened of whats to come
as to me its blatantly obvious
that this battle that they lost
weve won.
Glittering sunshine,
lighting the sky.
this heart of mine,
is broken; it cries.
shattered it lies there,
unwanted.alone.
forever it stays here,
with no-one to love.
isolated and empty,
wondering.
itll never mend.
now its been broken,
this torment wont end,
now its been broken.
woken from its nightmare.
woken from its sleep.
eyes wide open gazing.staring.
this empty room contains me.
locks me up alone.
Consequences rendered,
It's just a matter of time,
Around the streets I wondered,
To figure out what's mine,
With all the answers that matter,
I set the records straight,
With this gun I end this time,
With pupils dilated,
You're speaking in rhyme,
Drifting away a dissolving mind,
What can I say? I'm no long kind,
I traced my footsteps back to the start,
With a bullet though the head,
And a bullet through the heart,
I like you am dead stone cold,
We well not grow frail; grow old,
Left wandering the streets,
Just as before,
Wanting forgiveness,
Wanting some more,
Wanting someone to hold,
Hold once more.
Guess dishonesty is your favourite past-time,
Telling little stories about you being mine,
Making me believe "our" love is true,
Convincing my heart to belong to you,
I broke down and cried for hours,
I thought your love was mine;Ours?
Guess i was wrong,guess i was mistaken,
My love is now mine,and yours has been taken,
I guess its better off that way,
Nobody cares,
About you,
About me,
Never together,Never free.
The flicking flame of a candle,
the heat to a moth; too much to handle,
beaming bright light around the room,
nothing is right,good for you,
slowing going,drifting away,
the flame converses about its stay,
decides to go and takes the light,
leaving the room dark with fright,
ready for the night to take its tole,
the dark gets hungry... it takes control.
It starts with love,
And ends there too,
Life sucks so much,
But what can you do?
You bottle it up,
Or let everything out,
You can sit in silent pain,
Or scream and shout.
But when you look,
Back to yesterday,
Only one memory,
Will never fade away.
Who were you with,
And were you there,
With your friends,
The ones that care.
What really matters,
Is not if you win,
Or if you crumble,
And finally give in.
What really counts,
Is if you were true,
To yourself and also,
To those select few.
The select ones,
You know who,
The ones you love,
And who love you.
The Darkness Of Thought by TearsOfTorment, literature
Literature
The Darkness Of Thought
The silence welcomes me
Into my mind,
Where the monsters of thought
Decrease my time.
The thoughts pulse wildly
And beat at my soul.
They light their fires
But I pay their toll.
I hear so much
But there's no sound at all.
Just like when I feel stable,
When I'm about to fall.
This dark eternity
Causes me so much pain;
Yet I feel nothing,
And the pain I can't tame.
There's no way to get out,
No way to escape;
Someone please shake me,
I wish I was awake.
Personal Pet '05 -Parts 1+2- by VonKalkmann, literature
Literature
Personal Pet '05 -Parts 1+2-
Look around and you will see,
No other form quite like me,
Nothing else but you and I,
Below the earth and above the sky.
But with me you are all alone,
I have no flesh nor any bone,
I am a shadow of fantasies,
Built to satisfy and built to please.
In the dark I walk by your side,
But in the light I choose to hide,
Within you as deep as I can go,
So that I begin to thrive and grow.
Let come together and pray,
Every night and ever day,
And so in this madhouse we will,
Have enough fun to kill.
Innocence holds you,
But that's why I am here to
Take you to the gate and through,
Then make your fantasies come true.
When nobody el
place the rose, onto my dark black casket
withering thorns in my flower basket
place the letter inside my open heart
read my a poem for a start
you're the blade that cut my wrists,
you're the cause of all of this
lifeless and cold in this wooden chest
the blood, eyes closed, you figure out the rest
here i lay, in the front of the crowd
silence speaking so loud
is this death? or something more
let me ask...if i may...
what did you kill me for?
Confetti Was The Least Of It by ElegantLetDowns, literature
Literature
Confetti Was The Least Of It
To all aquaintances
Please leave me alone
I never wanted to go out
I just wanted to stay home
But you pulled me from my shell
Where I had been safe and warm
I was finally happy with myself
I had finally got through the storm
Seems it was only the eye
And the turbulance soon continued
I never knew what hit me
I never knew the venue
I was lost for 2 months straight
But here I am today
Back where I started and began
Back where I was in the first place
So I resolve to resolve
And just give in
I resolve to the same things
I resolved to last year
And the wicked past
Has always been there
And is just as important as now
So at
Hiding in the shadows,
is my dead body.
Tucked away forever,
secrets never seize.
I see your look of horror,
as you see me dead.
I laugh from up above you,
but wondering instead.
You never showed you loved me,
you never showed you cared.
Now your crying over me,
i just stand here so empty... so dead.
the lastest girlfriend dumped me 4 days ago, whilst i was at work, by text.
so that was a nice experience, and strangley enough i had my ex girlfriend comforting me.
this weeks been weird.
i have a long weekend, which is nice and don't intend on doing much, mainly because i have no money til i get paid.
but hey such is life.
yum coffee
2 years since i've written on here, alots changed.
finally out as gay, should of realised i was along time ago.
2days til my 19th birthday, crazy stuff.
left college last year and am now a carer for the elderly,and i really love my job, just not keen on the bruises i get from being punched,kicked and bitten, but hey nevermind :)
had an early birthday celebration with my mates and some friends from work last night as thats when the majority was free, and for the first time since my girlfriend dumped me, i had an amazing night,
such a laugh and i felt really happy :)
Everything at the minute is either confusing me or boring the hell out o
Well, i'm actually fully back using the net, so i'm going to re-add you all back so i can see your lovely deviations.
Life is ok, apart from a few ups and downs.
It's my 17th on the 27th,should be interesting.
Hope everyone is well, love to all,
Rach x
1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3.The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
Add this as a comment to ten of your friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years tag ur it!! this is so scary!!! send this to 15 ppl in the next 143 min. and then press F6 and your crushes name will appear in big letters!! it is so scary because it works.... but if you break the chain.. you will be cursed w/ relationship problems. ((I don't even belive in this but I liked what it says C: sorry if I'm bothering))
Hey up Lass, how's it going? Very long time since we last spoke. If you would like a tattoo design then I'd be glad to try to help, would be nice to have something to focus on, at the moment I'm drawing chinese dragons and roses a lot lol.
What design were you thinking?
I'm also hanging out at a tattoo shop that a guy I know has just opened, just getting to grips with the idea of it all, so watch this space, may be a future tattoo artist in the making .